I know I act like I don’t care, & that I don’t get jealous, but its not true. I have feelings too and I feel like a lot of people forget that. I like to act like I’m independent & don’t need nobody but even I can get a little clingy ..

i dont even have words to describe how angry i am right now. i feel hopeless because i know your getting out of this without a single dot on your record. i wish i could make you pay for what you did or at least make you realize what you actually did. you honestly think im the bad guy and your just an angel. i didnt even know it was possible to turn this around onto me. you talk so much about god & your religion, well you must be making him so proud right now.

I wish you’d acknowledge at least one thing I do as good enough. I know you don’t mean it but I hate how you constantly put me down and compare me to other girls. You pick me apart and make me feel really uncomfortable. 

When I look at all the people I’ve known since elementary school driving and going to prom it makes me really sad. I feel like their all still so close and I’ve just been left out of the circle. They all got to grow up together, and go to school together, and go to the same places together for the past how many years while I’ve been bouncing in and out of everywhere not really getting a chance to settle in before I have to leave again. They can all run into each other 20 years from now and remember going through all the bad and good together even if they weren’t really close they were still there. I’ve never belonged anywhere. Not in the same house, the same town, the same school, the same dance class, the same cheer team, etc. Sure I can fit in and make friends but I can NEVER make a real bond with any of them because I didn’t go through anything with them, I’m always just the new girl.